Entry 24

I need you now......

I have so many happy memories of the 7 years we spents together. I haven't thought about him in months and then I walk into the gym and see his face standing in front of me. It was enough to knock the wind out of my lungs and I could feel the tears. I know you have to let the past go to move on, but I have no closure at all. I still save the old voicemails because listening to his voice brings back everything for me.

I would love to go on vacation to the big apple but I don't know if mentally I am ready for that. I know it's a big city and I would never see him there, but knowing he would be less then 30 minutes away maybe still hurt to bad.

How do you le it go? I really need help.

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Entry 23

I love that you are trying to be sneaking...but seriously lets be honest you suck at it. I know for a fact you are going to pull into my drive way in less then 45 minutes but I am going to do what a amazing girl friend should do, I'm going to act like that I was completely clueless. I am going to make you believe that I had no idea and that I still thought you were coming in the morning.

It's not that act that mathers, it's really the thought that counts. God I love you.