Entry 21

Thank you for comng back into my life. It's been years the summer before we started highschool was the last time we were even remotely this close. We have both changed so much as people in those years, but it's easy to see we are the same two kids who had that amazing summer together. Talking to you last night for over an hour was something I needed so badly I can't even explain it to you, you took me back to one of the happiest times of my life. Before I got sick and before you got cancer. When all that matter was sneaking out of the house and making out in the woods. I wish I was that care free spirit now, the girl who would do anything when it came to you, speed bumps included. Instead we sit miles apart talking over the computer still not saying a million and one things on our minds. The what ifs in my head are endless. I can't explain to you how you made me feel then or how you still make me feel now because it would just be wrong. There are complications boyfriends, wives and beautiful children. Just know I am happy your here and loosing you again would break my heart.